Power is what I need but not for the way of government. But, a magic and stuff. To protect or destroy. That was my desire when I was a high school. Back there, I was so curious with the book "Call Adonoi".
I don't remember anything about what's inside the book. But, I have my spent for the copy before I took it back to library then re-borrowed it until all the pages are complete.
But. now. The time passes. Maybe, I'm satisfied with the power I have. What I mean, is about dream stuff and something called "Intuition". The only thing I do is to put it up to work. I still have no knowledge with New Age but I still have a great interest in it. Even now. Most of all, is Astrology (Zodiac and Chinese Zodiac).
However, I bought a tarot deck one year ago due to interest in Persona Series. My brother use it for fortune telling. A months ago, I read the book of tarot (which it includes in the set of Tarot). After that, I try a simple spread based on the book I read. Sometimes, I don't understand it's meaning. Have I not say that I'm nothing without a book? Well, you read it now.
I also bought a book of Dream to study of each of it and some dictionary to find it's meanings as I dream of something strange. Write it in the Dream Journal (some of my writing should not be shown). I don't mean to manipulate but I mean to try refreshing my memory of what I dream so far even some of the event is incomplete.
